Last of 2012

It's time to bid goodbye to 2012 but honestly, I don't feel a thing haha. Just another year with the same things going on. I can't say I did enjoyed 2012 nor did I disliked it so much, so just a pretty neutral feeling towards it. Nevertheless, 2012 did marked a new chapter of my life. 2012 was about A level results, working at Chartis, E going to army, Arts Camp, Taiwan trip, new school, new environment, new friends. I think that's about it? Can't even find anything very exciting in there haha.

But I still wanna thank the people who are in my life right now. As we move on with our life, some people go, some stay and some come. So, thank you to those who stay and/or are in my life right now, thank you for caring and letting me know that I'm loved :) I'm not looking forward to 2013 due to many reasons but nonetheless, I still hope for a better 2013. Here's to better results, joy and (more) freedom in 2013!

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Domino

Having a pretty bad week so far. Can only hope that things will get better. Anyway spent my 2nd Christmas with E <3 I honestly don't know how or what I will be without this boy :')

Went to watch CZ12 and it's really not too bad! But I mean, typical Jackie Chan's movie hahahaha. But I really do admire him for all the daring stunts he risked his life for. 

Dinner @ Canele thereafter! :) Hehe loving the macarons there!

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Actual Christmas was badddd. Bad mood the whole day and was falling sick argh. But got better after a good nap and opened the presents from the sisterssss.

Really loving all my Christmas Presents this year <3 almost everything on my wishlist!! Thanks Sisters!! 

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Results was mehhhh lousy I can't even describe how disappointed I was actually. I know I know I'm not smart so I gotta put in more effort next sem! I.WILL.CONQUER. Honours track seem far away and impossible now (I think I'm only willing to take honours if my CAP hit 4.0) but I shall continue to see where my results will take me. I'm honestly not looking forward to next sem cause it's gonna be- tough. Plus, piano exam is coming right up and I'm panicking like shit. I can't seem to do well in anything :'( 

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Received my yearly christmas card from Huiyan!! I honestly do miss her, all the fun times we had in crescent like throughout the 4 years :'( Hope she's doing well, future-teacher-to-be! :) 

Heading to Batam tomorrow and I'm not even excited. Ok maybe just alittle- for the food (which includes A&W!!!) hahahaha forever looking forward to food only #pigmax. On a side note, I'm super jealous of E who's in Bangkok now :( I wanna go shopping!!! Next year? :) 

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Intoxicated

Met up with my girls for Christmas Gift Exchange. Love this festive season, hehe so joyful. Tis the season to be jolly, falala lalala~ December is honestly such a happy month but sigh why am I worrying over my results and stupid piano (k I know I'm forever talking about the same thing) Actually was secretly hoping that the world ended on 21/12/12 then I don't have to care about the stupidest thing that is happening in my life. We are all actually born to suffer man I swear. Anyway yup pictures!

my exchanged gift with huiping (drew lots) and I'm so lucky to have gotten this! It was actually on my Xmas wishlist hahaha! Though it's not entirely what I wanted, but I guess still better than nothing :)

yes yes, that's what Jessica brought for gift exchange (Bangkok biscuit sticks) and Esther (who got the present) is just not into it.

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Check out my handsum boy in his number 2 uniform during graduation :) 

My first and probably only Christmas Card from the Pres. I'm so gonna miss the lepak club next sem sigh no more hanging around everyday in school since we are gonna major in different things :( 

And my DIY christmas nails~tada so proud of it cause it's really not easy okay....but all thanks to my sister who helped me to draw some of the little details :) 

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And to share one of my current favourite song :) it's so catchy I love it!

2 more days to Christmas and I'm so looking forward to it. It's gonna be so fun hehe.

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More than words

Here to liven up this space or maybe I just got too bored that's why I'm updating. My short 1-month+ holiday has been pretty ok I guess. I just wish I can do more things- things that are meaningful, more interesting or something that I want. Spending my holiday worrying about my results and piano exam isn't exactly my kind of ideal holiday. Some pictures before this post gets too boring.

I see a happy boy because he haz got food. 

Met up with the gang for dinner on Monday. Ah I honestly miss crescent and all the fun days. 

Finally got to try this yesterday!!! The waiting time is horribly long but omg it tastes so good I love it :) Honestly worth it cause it cost only $2!

My favourite kind of comfort food. Koko Krunch Duo (my fave cereal!) with milk :) 

And yes it's raining heavily now. How I wish I've got a book to read or something. But heck, I shall watch my favourite show currently: The Mentalist! (sorry I'm slow hahaha)

And because Christmas is approaching, I'm gonna share one of my all-time-favourite christmas song! (ok don't judge me)

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My Closest Pal

The one and only person I will probably tell almost anything and everything to. I may not have any best friend in my life right now to talk about whatever things I'm going through ( I know that's sad) but I know he will always be here for me <3 I just wanna say: Thank you, E :')

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All I ever wanted

My stomach feels weird the entire day. I don't know what's wrong with me :( Must be something I ate argh. Ok anyway, spent my last 3 days awesomely (as expected and mentioned earlier) Really love the month of December <3 Such a happy month (ok I really hope I still can say December is a happy month after I receive my results ahem) though it's a month of spending as well....but oh well.

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Friday was spent with WCP. Jessica pangseh last minute and so there were only 5 of us left! Really missing Olivia already!! :( Hope she comes back to visit soon. Ok yes back to this, it was supposed to be surprised belated birthday celebration for the ping. Haha we were all too busy during November to meet up so yup we planned this for her and omg the ping is like ultimate blur hahahaha. I thought we were pretty obvious throughout (like trying to hide the cake and the fact that we met up earlier etc) but still, she got surprised! So, mission successful ^^

Happy Belated Birthday Huiping!

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Pop by Grandma's house on Saturday to celebrate her birthday in advance! :) She cooked our ever-favourite Mee Hoon Kueh <333333 omg I swear I will never get sick of it and I used to eat it so many times when I always stay over at her house when I was young! Birthday cake from Cedele, so yummy as well hahahaha. Then went shopping with the sisters and ended up buying nothing :( But still, great day spent! :)

Same old great taste <3 Am craving for it while typing this now :'( 

the married sister with grandma ^^

Spotted this at Bugis Street!!!! I was like "omg that's my childhood biscuit!" yes totally love this when I was young too!Anyone remember this as well? :) This was pretty famous in my childhood era I supposed because one of the shopkeeper (around my age) asked me where I got this from after she saw me eating!Paid $1.20 for this, probably 2 times (or more) the price or more as compared to last time but yums, so worth it to try it again after so long! 

Tried "I love Taimei" bubbletea as well since I never got to try it but erm ok, it was nothing fantastic plus the wait was like horribly long. Koi is still my ultimate favourite ^^ But the fried stuff do look super tasty! Shall try it next time when I'm near Bugis area :) Wanted to try the famous Dan Zai at Bugis but the queue was so long :'( regret. Gonna try it as well next time!!!!

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Spent my day as usual with my favourite boy hee. We just nua around actually hahaha but whatever time spent with him is good time <3 

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Everybody's changing

So much thoughts in my mind right now. Everyone is going through a different phase of life and I can feel that everyone is changing. Ah so hard to describe but there are people doing things that I never thought they will do a few years back. I guess, everything is possible isn't it? While, I myself, is still stucked here, not moving anywhere. It's so hard to be part of something like that and anyway, I know nobody will ever include me with the situation I am in. Trust me, it sucks to be me. And I'm tired of being me. So many things I'm dying to try out while I'm still young but I guess I gotta let it all go and lead a mundane teenage life. Ok I know: I'm pathetic.

By the way, I'm tired of being someone to be included as and when people wish to. I deserve some sort of dignity and respect don't I? I just wish I can do something for myself without hurting anyone.

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The stars are burning out

Finally back with a mini update. Spent the last few days just slacking and enjoying this I-have-nothing-to-do feeling. It's nice actually though it gets boring after awhile. But actually who am I kidding when I say I have nothing to do :( I've this stressful thing called piano grade 8 exam coming up and I think I am so fucked up cause I still keep making mistakes boooo. Ok I blame my lousy fingers and my dying interest for piano.

Anyway headed out on Tuesday with the family to accompany my grandma :D Went her house for lunch and yumssss, miss her home cooked food :) Brought her to Gardens by the Bay and I swear it's the most boring place ever. Haha sorry I just don't have interest in all the plants and flowers though I have to admit some flowers are really so pretty :)

I look soooo tired and yes I was really tired. Intense piano session before that haha. And my body clock switched to: Waking up before 1030 will make me super super tired HAHA. 

The best thing was trying out this ice cream!!! It was white rose flavour, so yums ^^ It's uniquely created as seen on the tub so you can't find this at Udders outlets (I think) Everyone should go try this flavour!! They have a few other flavours as well. 

Took many other pictures with my dad's new Samsung Note 2 (which will be my sister's soon because they're gonna exchange phone). The screen is soooo mega big, no privacy ahem but the pictures taken with Note 2 is really pretty :) Colours are so vibrant and nice! Can't show you guys cause I didn't transfer the pictures over. 

Spotted this picture at my grandma's house!! okok I know I look like a boy but who cares,  I think it's pretty cute ok ^^ My mum commented that I don't even look like my young self, REALLY?! The girl beside me is my third sis. You guys can do a compare and contrast with the first picture above hahaha.

Exciting weekend ahead! Meeting WCP tomorrow, then visiting my grandma on Saturday (her birthday is coming) then shopping after that with the sister and then Sunday with my favourite boy :) Ah I can't wait ^^

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Shine bright like a diamond

Liberation Day 2!!!! Sorry, just too excited because honestly, haven't felt so carefree in a long while :) Today was well spent with the boy (as usual) though my mood got ruined slightly in the middle but oh wells. My ruined mood caused me to break my no-bubble-tea record :'( there, it's gone now. I haven't been drinking bubble tea for 2 months! HAHAHA k don't laugh at me, I know it's no big deal for a lot of people out there but goodness, I HEART BUBBLE TEA WITH PEARLS. Like.so.much. But well cause I got suan-ed too much by bitchy Jian an in school so I told myself to cut down and I gained so much weight ever since Taiwan trip :( ok but I'm on the road to losing weight!!! (Y)

Went to explore the new The Star Vista mall at Buona Vista (am I slow or what?) and I actually kinda like it! Yes, there's no air con at the walking area except in the shops/toilets but I find the environment still bearable, plus there's really a lot of new food stalls to try out!!! And well, it's a good break from the ever-crowded-crazily-packed town. I hate hate hate crowded places so I really like this new mall. Much quieter and nice :)

E says his arms looks big here he like HAHAHA STUPID. 

Yay I really like to walk around candy empire! There's sooo much tasty food for me to drool at heh. But I'm proud that I restricted myself and didn't buy any junk home!

If you followed me on instagram you would have seen this! SOFRIES. If you don't know, SOFRIES is the sister's store of SOGURT.I like the fries even without the dips! That dip is satay peanut sauce anyway. But I think $4.90 for this portion is alittle....not worth it. But I do really love the taste of the fries! :) 

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#16

Can't really decide whether I'm lucky or unlucky. Unlucky for the fact that I fell sick during my finals period but lucky for the fact that tomorrow is my last paper. Feeling totally restless now and I just feel like going to take a nap and forget about studying for JS. But well, I know that's not possible so I gotta continue hanging in there. It all started with a sore throat on tuesday night then dry cough then cough with phlegm then headache then a flu now. Look at the process man and it all took place within 2 days :( Went to see the doctor last night hoping that I will feel much better today but nah, seems like my body is rejecting the huge amount of medicine. Argh, I have this vomitting feel now and then, plus water tastes disgusting to me sigh :(

Despite all this, I can't wait for tomorrow to come. FINALS WILL BE OVER HELL YAY. It's been such a torture studying for all the subjects (though I know I didn't put in my best) but whatever, shall enjoy this no-more-assignments-and-projects vacation!! You don't know how long I've been waiting this! Whoo, till the next post and I'll be enjoying my well deserved vacation! :) Good luck to those having finals as well! :)

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Fall short of glory

I find myself keep coming back to this space because I've no where else to spam my emotions and all. Honestly, this is the first time I ever felt so loser-ish cause I don't get why I am feeling this way either. Come on, I'm so used to bad results already so I kinda is/should be immune to it anyway. Maybe uni is just so competitive that it makes me feel inferior to so many people.

The saddest thing is: I'm keeping all this to myself.
Oh well, if you get what I mean.

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Fucking bad day

Yup the title says it all. I'm feeling all so depressed now I don't know why and this feeling won't go away for hours :( ok the main bulk of this depressed-ness is cause of the assignment+project grades I've gotten back today. Seems like the school is pretty good at demoralising people before the finals. JS project was below expectations but I felt pretty ok cause I feel like we've tried our best and all. It's not our fault that the tutor doesn't like it anyway. But still oh well, 40% kinda badly done already. And then moving on to NM assignment 3. It was so.bad. It's like fuck? How can I ever score so badly for a freaking IMD assignment, it's easy yes, oh maybe that's why. But honestly, u.p.s.e.t. I can say goodbye to my NM grades already :(

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Honestly, I always feel that what's the point of me studying so hard when I know I'm never gonna be as good as some people are. Hard work will NEVER translate to results, yes in my case, it's forever like that. I work fucking hard all the time but in the end I gained nothing in return. It just makes me wanna give up so many times. Sigh, life is so unfair.

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Got hold of a news yesterday and it strucked.me.hard. Well, I acted like nothing happened because I don't wanna be selfish. I know it's such a good opportunity that even I feel that you should grab hold of. But tears will form in my eyes whenever I think of the possiblity of you leaving :( I know you will tell me that everything is possible as long as we try but tell you what: I don't want to try at all. Because I know it will not work out. So why waste each other's time? This is mega depressing and it sucks that I have to know this at the start of finals. I'm choosing to keep everything to myself because I don't want to affect your decision. We'll see where fate brings us to.

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Be your everything

Chanced upon this picture in my phone while taking a break from studying. Just realised how stupid I can be whatever I'm with this silly boy :') I feel so loved every single time when I'm with him <3 Can't wait for exams to be over so that I can finally spend more quality time with him! 6 more days to go! 

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Set this world on fire

My mind is exploding anytime because I'm overwhelmed with stress I'm not kidding.

1) Finals' a few days away but I got demoralised all over again today while discussing past year geog questions with Pres+SR. Physical geog is plain killer? You know what, I'm honestly satisfied with a B/B-
2) Just went to check the modules offered for next sem and I realised EL1101 clashes with a lot of my EC modules. Annoying much? The worst thing is I must and have to take EL1101 next sem else I have to take history like urps, I really don't want to :( but I don't think I'm capable of handling 2 exams on a same day, one in the afternoon and another in the evening. Ah, this is frustrating.
3) Piano exam in possibly 2-3 months' (I'm praying it's 3 months) time. I'm still not fluent in any songs yet making mistakes here and there. Not to mention how lousy my sightreading and aural are :'( I need to practise damn hard during my vacation if not I will waste $420 away just like that. I really wanna end my piano life once and for all this time. Omg please I'm hoping so much I'll pass.
4) So many other subjects to study for, it's never ending.

Sigh why is life so hard? :(

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Breakfree

I think it's so foolish of you to think that all of us (or maybe just especially me) will want to keep on lying to you. You know what bitch? I don't need your trust at all actually. I just want my freedom and my own life. You may be one of the most caring person ever, but when you're at your extreme end you suck big time. No matter how much you've done before will never make up for that. I will forever remember my birthday last year and christmas a few years back. I know it's mean but honestly so many times I hope you will just disappear forever since you're never gonna change that darn character of yours. I honestly had enough. Just go, really.

Brandon's birthday

 Long overdue post.

 Zichar Buffet @ Hooked on Heads. First time trying that out and I thought the food wasn't too bad! Worth going with many guys who can chomp down so much food. But the variety does get boring after awhile hahaha.


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Struggling to finish studying for finals but it seem almost impossible now. Can't find the drive I had in me when I was studying for A's. You know what, I'm just hoping for the best. So looooking forward to December already. Please come quickly.

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