Charm

Roger Federer x Chace Crawford x Nicholas Hoult 

Hehe they are absolutely my latest addictions and oh did I mention I really love to see guys wearing suits? Hahaha ok personal preference. Lacking of motivation to study nowadays only because I'm not too sure where I should even start from, fail right :( Someone please wake me up and force me to studyyy I will honestly appreciate that.

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Guilty

Been feeling really down lately only cause I'm just not doing well academically wise. You know it's just major depressing when you've studied but the results is just not there :( Broke down quite a few time this week sigh but I just really so thankful I have E with me to cheer me up and talk me through all the time :') I am honestly contemplating to change my major next semester just cause econs has got the craziest smartest people in there and I can't keep up with them!!! oh god, why is life so hard :( never ever felt so depressed (academically-wise) in my life so far. Finals' in about a month's time I don't even know whether I can pass one of my econs mod (yes it's that bad). But well, you know what, I'm still gonna suck it up and stay as positive as I can!!! So anyone out there who is feeling the same way as I do, let's hang in there!!! I know it's not gonna be easy and honestly I don't know whether we will achieve the results that we want but at least what I'm gonna do is to try my best. Booked my first (two) ever uni consultation slots for next week and hopefully I can keep that up all the way till week 14.

ps, E passed his driving test on his first try yayyyyy! Now I officially have a driver to drive me around *grin*

From Tumblr:

I love to visit Tumblr once in awhile just because I can find almost anything there. Don't everyone love to say: Pictures speak a thousand words? :)

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Mirrors

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Survivor

Dreading school so much recently (ok I mean I've been dreading schools all the time) And it makes life so much more upsetting for the fact that I'm always at the bottom of the bellcurves :( Why is everyone so smart and why the hell am I that dumb? :( I don't even know how to survive anymore in school, it's just...major depressing. I'm not doing well in any single module so it's like...ok can. I.HATE.SCHOOL. I sound like a whiny little kid but trust me, I think everyone who enters uni feel this way (unless of course you are freaking smart and then I got nothing to say) I'm trying so hard to remain positive and working harder than usual. I need a CAP jump from my first semester man. If I don't, I am a major failure #forever like I always am.

In great need of motivation and I guess my only motivation (since a few months ago) has been my 3 month vacation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bangkok on the 14th of June yay. Not sure whether I've mentioned this but I'm heading to Hokkaido on the 12th of July as well. See my major excitement?? But for now, let me get past the last 5 weeks of school before finals kicks in. Chermaine, you have to buck up and stop being so stupid.

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Sorry I forever ranting cause I've been this down ever since mid terms grades/assignment grades started to be released. Okay anyways backtrack alittle, last saturday was spent at openhouse + DTF Dinner with the girls. Oh wth, I don't know how anyone survived the openhouse cause it was soooo boring and Utown is forever out of the way. DTF dinner was great and I'm glad I met up with most of them for a quick catch up and laughter :)

The pets that Jessica+Ping got for us hahaha. My penguin is so well loved by my family that it's constantly getting pumped to make sure it doesn't "die". I  know I know, my family is weird hahahaha. 

Ending off this post with just 2 pictures because I've got many things waiting for me to do. #lifeofaunistudent. *sigh* Be back when I can!

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Learn to love again.

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Piano be gone (forever)

CELEBRATORY MOMENT FOR ME CAUSE I'M OFFICIALLY DONE WITH PIANO ONCE AND FOR ALL!!! ok luh but honestly speaking I've absolutely no confidence of passing at all cause I screwed up like a zillion times during the exam. I was so nervous that I even forgot my scales :( oh god loser. Sight reading I basically played like shit, not to mention my aural - it was soooo badly done cause I can't hear a single thing #majorfail sigh I'm alittle upset that I'm gonna fail it but at least it's over for me. Nope I'm not gonna retake or whatsoever hahahaha. And my mum told me it's ok even if I pass or fail, well I guess she freaked out when she saw how stressed up I was. Sigh if only I performed better for my scales ah wasted :(

Oh wells nevermind, don't point harping on the past. I'm very relieved and that's the most important!!! ^^ Now I'll focus on my work and working out to shed some weight :)

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Heart attack

Blogging now only because tomorrow is the big day for me of the year - Grade 8 (final grade) piano exam. I know many might not think it's of any big deal cause honestly, it's an outside-academic thing, so whether I pass or not,it doesn't affect my life, it just gives me an extra certificate to allow me to teach piano next time if I ever want to. But, I feel that it's way more than that. Learning piano is a super expensive "hobby" because the monthly fees is really not cheap and worse still you have to devote some time every week to practise to ensure you're on track and your fingers doesn't get rusty. I know I don't have a flair in piano because I'm constantly struggling and I always take the longest time ever to learn a song hahahaha fail. I wanted to stop completely while I was focusing on A's because I know I don't have any interest in piano anymore (since long long ago) But yes, my wonderful mum doesn't allow like wtf. I was just trying to help my dad save some money actually, she felt that I should complete what I had started. So yes here I am, heading for my exam tomorrow and while I was feeling stressed up she told me one thing: "So stressed up for what. So stressed then you don't take the exam luh." OH WOW MOST ENCOURAGING THING I'VE EVER HEARD *claps* Like excuse me you're the one who forced me to continue and this is the only thing you can say when you can see that I'm stressed up? SERIOUSLY FUCK YOU. I just don't want to waste all the piano fees my dad had paid and most importantly, the fees for this exam -$420. It's not a small amount so you can guess why I am pretty stressed up. Oh well whatever it is, I just hope everything goes well tomorrow because I wanna end my piano life once and for all. It's annoying and time-consuming. So for those people who consider taking piano, my advice is think carefully or just learn from your friends to get the basics. Going for certificates is just a big no no. Most people ended up like me :(

Oh okay, end of my ranting. I supposed I'll be back tomorrow to pop some champagne to celebrate the end of my piano exams. Honestly can't wait ^^ Meanwhile, here to share one of my favourite song now!! Super catchy and I can't stop listening over and over again. Okay, don't judge me :)

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09/03

I used to tell all (or almost) all my friends about the way to remember my birthday hahaha- 09/03/93, so like 9393 ok luh I know many of you have heard or seen this many times but guess what!!! This really works for some of my friends and I still think my birth date is the coolest of the year 1993 :D I'm officially 20~ I'm not sad neither am I happy but I'm just really glad this year's birthday wasn't as bad as what I expected :) Just wanna thank every single person who bothered to wish me a happy birthday on facebook/whatsapp/text/twitter :) This is the day where I feel extremely loved hehe.

 I didn't spend my birthday doing anything special or what but I guess a simple day with E is more than enough :') He never fails to let me know and feel that I'm SO loved. I'm just so thankful for him I don't even know what to say <3

Uni friends surprising me yesterday at BPP's Macs ^^ heh received a Sephora medium make up palette from them!!! Extremely love it <3 <3 <3 

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Went to Koh Grill & Sushi Bar to have my birthday lunch!!! Have been wanting to try that out so guess how excited I was when E revealed to me he was bringing me there!!! Yay telepathy~honestly the best food there apparently is their shiok maki, like so so so many people raved about it but guess what we didn't try it cause it looks pretty filling on its own but not filling enough for our stomachs....so we opted for mains with other sides to fill our empty stomach ^^ actually out of the 4 I will only recommend the seafood fried rice!!! It's only $10 but look at that portion!!!! But it's not advisable for one to tackle this alone because it's alittle salty! :( So do share with your friends if you're trying this out next time!! I'll be back for my SHIOK MAKI.

#ootd for the day and I'm wearing my favourite abstract prints bustier top at the moment+a normal black skater skirt :) Hehe E so cute in his polka dots shirt :p but the highlight of this picture is my longchamp birthday gift from him!!! I was like mega surprised honestly can't believe it :') new bag for school yay ^^

Then to Cine for a movie! Jack-the Giant Slayer. K, it was a last minute decision and it was kinda the earliest movie timing with still decent seats. Wanted to watch Oz but all pretty filled :( But before that I went Sephora and got myself a birthday gift hehehe. #reasonstospend 

After the movie I went *Scape and bought myself another iPhone cover hahaha! And then went back to E's house to basically nua and have dinner at his house :) 

E's family celebrated for me as well <3 

And then pretty much sums up my 20th Birthday :) I know it's nothing special but I'm still really happy today ;) Now back to reality where I face upcoming assignments and piano exam (!!!!) it's coming up in 4 days' time oh god the horror. I really hope everything goes well and the remaining sem will be manageable :) 

Since 10th March is approaching in another 10 mins' time: Happy advanced 29th month to E and I <3 I know we'll have many many more to come <3 been blogging so much recently. So, till the next one! 

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Birthday Eve

Just want to spend alittle time penning down my thoughts of the day before I forget but honestly though today isn't my birthday, I'm still truly happy. I'm just super thankful for friends who remembered my birthday and actually bothers to buy something for me :)

Thank you Elouis for your little gift and card, it truly warmed my heart yesterday when I knew that you got something for me <3
Thank you Lepak Club for coming all the way to BP just so you guys can surprise me (you guys really did omg). Jian An staying in Bedok still came all the way; Singrui meeting bf for movie but still take time off for me and last of all Siti, for rushing from town to BP. I was like truly madly surprised haha I mean the feeling was great I never ever got surprised before because either nobody bothers to or I'm just too smart for them hahahaha. Thank you you four also for the amazing gift you guys got me <3 Thank you for being part of my torturous university journey.
Of course not to forget my dearest boy who actually co-operated with them to surprised me!!! You sneaky boy :p Thank you for the gift you gotten me as well I'm so so so happy <3 Hehe can't wait to spend my time with him tomorrow :)

Ah, I just feel super loved today though it's just them who showered me with love. Thank you for letting me know I'm worth all of your time and this means to me more than anything <3

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Numb

Mid terms' finally over!!! *throws confetti* But at least I was happy for a moment because when I came back home there's still tons of things waiting for me to complete :( My head is aching so badly at this moment and I'm dreading tmr because there's 2104 tutorial and god knows how much I'm gonna score for my mid terms. I'm honestly just hoping that I'll manage to pass. Be back soon, need to complete my 2012 tutorial tomorrow. I'm so looking forward to Saturday :')

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