#16

Can't really decide whether I'm lucky or unlucky. Unlucky for the fact that I fell sick during my finals period but lucky for the fact that tomorrow is my last paper. Feeling totally restless now and I just feel like going to take a nap and forget about studying for JS. But well, I know that's not possible so I gotta continue hanging in there. It all started with a sore throat on tuesday night then dry cough then cough with phlegm then headache then a flu now. Look at the process man and it all took place within 2 days :( Went to see the doctor last night hoping that I will feel much better today but nah, seems like my body is rejecting the huge amount of medicine. Argh, I have this vomitting feel now and then, plus water tastes disgusting to me sigh :(

Despite all this, I can't wait for tomorrow to come. FINALS WILL BE OVER HELL YAY. It's been such a torture studying for all the subjects (though I know I didn't put in my best) but whatever, shall enjoy this no-more-assignments-and-projects vacation!! You don't know how long I've been waiting this! Whoo, till the next post and I'll be enjoying my well deserved vacation! :) Good luck to those having finals as well! :)

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Fall short of glory

I find myself keep coming back to this space because I've no where else to spam my emotions and all. Honestly, this is the first time I ever felt so loser-ish cause I don't get why I am feeling this way either. Come on, I'm so used to bad results already so I kinda is/should be immune to it anyway. Maybe uni is just so competitive that it makes me feel inferior to so many people.

The saddest thing is: I'm keeping all this to myself.
Oh well, if you get what I mean.

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Fucking bad day

Yup the title says it all. I'm feeling all so depressed now I don't know why and this feeling won't go away for hours :( ok the main bulk of this depressed-ness is cause of the assignment+project grades I've gotten back today. Seems like the school is pretty good at demoralising people before the finals. JS project was below expectations but I felt pretty ok cause I feel like we've tried our best and all. It's not our fault that the tutor doesn't like it anyway. But still oh well, 40% kinda badly done already. And then moving on to NM assignment 3. It was so.bad. It's like fuck? How can I ever score so badly for a freaking IMD assignment, it's easy yes, oh maybe that's why. But honestly, u.p.s.e.t. I can say goodbye to my NM grades already :(

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Honestly, I always feel that what's the point of me studying so hard when I know I'm never gonna be as good as some people are. Hard work will NEVER translate to results, yes in my case, it's forever like that. I work fucking hard all the time but in the end I gained nothing in return. It just makes me wanna give up so many times. Sigh, life is so unfair.

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Got hold of a news yesterday and it strucked.me.hard. Well, I acted like nothing happened because I don't wanna be selfish. I know it's such a good opportunity that even I feel that you should grab hold of. But tears will form in my eyes whenever I think of the possiblity of you leaving :( I know you will tell me that everything is possible as long as we try but tell you what: I don't want to try at all. Because I know it will not work out. So why waste each other's time? This is mega depressing and it sucks that I have to know this at the start of finals. I'm choosing to keep everything to myself because I don't want to affect your decision. We'll see where fate brings us to.

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Be your everything

Chanced upon this picture in my phone while taking a break from studying. Just realised how stupid I can be whatever I'm with this silly boy :') I feel so loved every single time when I'm with him <3 Can't wait for exams to be over so that I can finally spend more quality time with him! 6 more days to go! 

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Set this world on fire

My mind is exploding anytime because I'm overwhelmed with stress I'm not kidding.

1) Finals' a few days away but I got demoralised all over again today while discussing past year geog questions with Pres+SR. Physical geog is plain killer? You know what, I'm honestly satisfied with a B/B-
2) Just went to check the modules offered for next sem and I realised EL1101 clashes with a lot of my EC modules. Annoying much? The worst thing is I must and have to take EL1101 next sem else I have to take history like urps, I really don't want to :( but I don't think I'm capable of handling 2 exams on a same day, one in the afternoon and another in the evening. Ah, this is frustrating.
3) Piano exam in possibly 2-3 months' (I'm praying it's 3 months) time. I'm still not fluent in any songs yet making mistakes here and there. Not to mention how lousy my sightreading and aural are :'( I need to practise damn hard during my vacation if not I will waste $420 away just like that. I really wanna end my piano life once and for all this time. Omg please I'm hoping so much I'll pass.
4) So many other subjects to study for, it's never ending.

Sigh why is life so hard? :(

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Breakfree

I think it's so foolish of you to think that all of us (or maybe just especially me) will want to keep on lying to you. You know what bitch? I don't need your trust at all actually. I just want my freedom and my own life. You may be one of the most caring person ever, but when you're at your extreme end you suck big time. No matter how much you've done before will never make up for that. I will forever remember my birthday last year and christmas a few years back. I know it's mean but honestly so many times I hope you will just disappear forever since you're never gonna change that darn character of yours. I honestly had enough. Just go, really.

Brandon's birthday

 Long overdue post.

 Zichar Buffet @ Hooked on Heads. First time trying that out and I thought the food wasn't too bad! Worth going with many guys who can chomp down so much food. But the variety does get boring after awhile hahaha.


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Struggling to finish studying for finals but it seem almost impossible now. Can't find the drive I had in me when I was studying for A's. You know what, I'm just hoping for the best. So looooking forward to December already. Please come quickly.

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Selling post!

I don't know whether you guys know, but I'm actually quite a shoppaholic, especially for online clothes hahahaha! I've so many clothes piling up so I decided I shall hold a selling post! Please support ^^ All the items I'm selling are in perfect/almost perfect condition! I'm not unethical to sell damaged/disgusting/torn clothes k! So don't worry :)

NEW ITEMS (Brand new, not worn before, comes with plastic/tags) 
ps, photo credits to theclosetlover, thetinselrack,catwalkclose, hollyhoque, swivelle,thevelvetdolls &apparelize.

                                               

The Closet Lover Bohemian Chiffon Top @ $26 mailed

Hollyhoque Contrast Panel Dress in Grey/Pink @ $26.50 mailed

Bonitochico (former Love Bonito) Nude Pink Blazer @ $24 mailed
Washed once but not worn before at all.

Hollyhoque Taupe Bodycon Dress @ $20 mailed

Brown Leather Armswag @ $8 mailed
Does not comes with plastic

Triple Layer necklace @ $10 mailed

PRE-LOVED ( Worn before and items are checked carefully) 

The Tinsel Rack My Fair Lady Blouson @18 mailed

Worn once. 10/10

Bugis Street Monochrome Top with gold buttons @ $5 mailed

Worn a few times. 9/10

IHF Retro Vintage Top @ $15 mailed

Worn once. 10/10 

The Closet Lover Blue Stripes Top @$5 mailed

Worn a few times. 9/10

The Closet Lover Embellished Cuff Bodycon Toga Dress (XS) @$25 mailed

Worn once. 10/10

ok the coolest thing about this dress is that it's an unreleased design from TCL!! The owners very kindly sold me this dress(because I asked them whether there's any prom-like dresses) to wear to my boy's ocs dinner! So you don't see this anywhere (as of now)

Hollyhoque Dreamcatcher Tank @$8 mailed

Worn once. 10/10

Crochet Ovelay Tank @ 15 mailed

Worn once. 10/10 

Multi Knots Platforms @ $20.50mailed

Worn twice. 7.5/10

Recommended for C&K 37 because I'm a C&K 36 and this platforms is too loose for me :( If not I really love it boo. 

Wokay, that marks the end of my selling post! So many things ikr. 

If anyone of you is interested in my items/want to know more about the length/measurements etc/negotiate price, please text me if you're my friend/have my number! (I honestly don't know who is reading my blog) If not, do email me at life_suxs9@hotmail.com. Thank you ;) (Don't laugh at my email :( Had it when I was P6 hahahaha) 

The beauty in everything

Taking time off to blog because I am feeling so restless and sleepy. Tons of things undone and time is running out. #whatsnew Spent my day rather productively studying and I will proceed on to NM tutorial + summarising Modern Japan readings after this. Sounds boring already :(

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Anyway yesterday was really well spent with the family! ;) No studying involved (yes I'm guilty)+shopping+good food! Headed to Queensway Ikea in the afternoon for lunch and yes it was mad crowded as usual. The food seem to be dropping standard (anyone thinks so?) but the crowd never seem to decrease argh. Had my favourite baked chicken leg (!!!). My favourite ever since they keep making changes to poached salmon. Went off to Vivo and then dinner buffet @ Kiseiki at orchard central. Stomach exploded and lots of fats gained. Ah I really need to lose weight :(

Only picture taken yesterday with my sister! Loving my necklace ^^

New kicks! Can't wait to wear them out! 

Souvenirs from Eldest Sis from States! Absolutely loving the Elf Eyeshadow Palette :* Can't wait to try them out soon hoho.

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Chasing every heartbeat

I'm blogging only because today is such a happy day!! ^^ A for Geography Prac 2 (let's forget about Prac 1) and Human Geog project!!!! Okay that's awesome news for me as that means that 40% of this mod is kinda really well done :) 60% is on finals and there're so many things I need to know: concepts, definition by famous people, examples etc. Not to mention this is just 1 mod :( Oh god whyyyyy. Sigh, but at least tanminyee kindly offered to teach me physical geog yay!!! Omg I need that help so much hopefully I will understand so much better with her passion in geog HAHAHAH. Thanks Minyee :)

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Suffering every night because I'm rushing to study, rushing to make notes,  rushing to complete. #sadlife I tried my hardest to complete but it never seem to be enough :( I make notes but I don't remember, so cool right? So I have to study twice every single time. That's how lousy my brain is :( 13 more days to the start of my first paper, let's gooooo!

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Enough of depressing stuff. So tomorrow is public holiday!!!! (actually it doesn't concern me cause I have no school on Tuesdays anyway) but I'm having dinner buffet tomorrow @ Kiseiki!! Whoots whoots! ^^ So looking forward to that though I know I will gaining fats that is so difficult to lose. I hate my bodyweight and how I look now :( Anyone wants to motivate me??

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Wonderstruck

Just here to say: Happy 25th boy <3  I may not always show it out but I'm really so glad to have you :)

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The city never sleeps tonight.

5 days late to announce the arrival of November but just want to mention how important November is to me. November used to so looked forward to by me because it signals ending of exams and start of holidays but Uni changed this because it's gonna be my finals soon :( Dreading it completely because there's only about 3 weeks left to study all those shit. Honestly speaking, I have absolutely no confidence in any of my subjects, sigh what's new. I am just hoping for the best and look forward to 1st December!!!! ^^

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Interview this Wednesday for a (maybe) new events job happening during my vacations! I hope I can make it and I hope they hire me! *crossing my fingers* Off to find interesting topics to reply to for JS Forum Response posts so meanwhile, enjoy my current favourite song :)

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