Now

Have been eating myself crazy recently, yes due to the upcoming exams. When I'm studying, I will either feel bored or sleepy and the only way to counter this is to eat hahaha #excuses. Been to Starbucks so many times recently to study and so yes I'm getting broke and gaining fats. Things' been looking up for me for the past few weeks and I can't be more thankful than that :) First was passing of piano exams. My piano teacher called me one day to congratulate me and told me that she has a student who got 94 marks (passing marks is 100) and her sister's (who is also a piano teacher) student got 99 so I was like whoop! I'm really proud of myself for passing now ;) So many of my friends retook the exams before and I'm glad I never have to again yay. Second was being above average for my econs homework 2. #likefinallysomethingthatisaboveaverage Third was my IMD project being the top 2 projects for the whole cohort :) You know that amazing feeling?! hahaha whoo that's like A+ for my project :) and my other IMD assignments' marks were subsequently released as well and I must say, it's pretty ok :) #majorhappiness So my friends are already telling me to go be a CNM major already but...idk yet. Still considering about that. Oh yeah my SSA project received an A as well yay. Fourth was passing my job interview :) It's like emerging out of so many people (I don't know how many they shortlisted that day) but it's almost like a victory feeling :) I really wanna try out something new for the first time so I'm praying they will call me right after my exam end on 6th May! :)

I know I know it's like just super minor things but honestly, I'm thankful for everything. But right now the bad thing about me is that I can't seem to focus!!! I kept thinking I've very little things to study (cause I started revising for finals pretty early) but I've no confidence that I know everything sigh. 4 exams in 1 week, let's do this. 6th May, you're oh so near. I think I will start rejoicing in my heart at 3pm hahaha.

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Humanity

How many of us can actually be like her? She's amazing, noble and I admire her for being able to do the things she want to - saving girls from human trafficking. Human trafficking is like disgustingly horrible. My heart goes out to all these poor women and I really glad there's people like Anurada Koirala who's out there to save these poor women. I just wish less terrible things will happen to the people living in the third world countries :( My heart just ache everytime I know there are such incidents. And honestly, if I have to ability to, I will want to help save all the poor/hungry/homeless/tortured people. They deserve to live a normal human life with joy and happiness as well. 

The recent incidents like Boston Marathon Earthquakes and gunshots just leave me thinking: Why? What were these people thinking? Why must they do this? I honestly don't get it, why is it so difficult to achieve world peace. Okay I know, there are different ideologies or values hold by different group of people and everyone want to fight for themselves but...can't we handle all these without hurting one another? There's yet another raping case in India and this time it's a 5-year-old girl like honestly wtf? What have that poor little girl done to deserve this? And she's just 5, what do you want from her? The world is crazily messed up sigh. It's all these problems that make me appreciate my belonging in Singapore. I may not be living happily in my family and I'm "tortured" by the education system and the reality of this society, but at least I'm pretty safe here and it prevents me from experiencing all these terrible things. I just wish everyone can be more tolerant of one another. Can we all please stop fighting and torturing one another, please?

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Raise your glass

I MADE IT THROUGH THE INTERVIEWS!!!

But right now the problem is, I can't make it for the training days as I'll be having my reading week and I really wanna just focus on my studies :/ Sigh hope they will still hire me *prays damn hard* Come on, I've made this far, don't tell me I'm stopped at this stupid hurdle. If they don't hire me because of that then honestly I rather fail the interview argh. Shall wait for their reply patiently and of course I'll reveal where I will be working at once I've confirmed my spot ;)

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Change

Fingers crossed for tomorrow, really. I know I really want it though I don't really need it but still, I just want to prove to myself that I don't suck that badly (as usual) sigh, pray for me everyone!!

On a side note,  I finally got something above average for my econs mod?!?! HAHA LIKE FINALLY. It's not like it's a huge percentage thing but....it's enough for myself. Week 13 is gonna end soon. Worried and happy at the same time!! For now, let me get past tomorrow.

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Freefall

Made an effort to wake up early to head to school to get studying done today and yes, mega tiring. It's like macroecons all the way I wanna vomit. So, yes right now I feel like this:

hahaha sorry I'm so into gif lately cause they're so cute!!!! My way of destressing hahaha. But yes anyway back to the point. It's week 12 now so I barely have much time left to brush up my stupid econs. I'm feeling rather optimistic about my SSA (because I know our project will be quite okay since I have mega good people inside my group ^^) and after my imd presentation yesterday I feel that my group did pretty ok too!!! So at least 2 modules are ok but 3 modules sucks big time. So I'm doing whatever I can to do more studyingggg. Hang in there everyone, I know it's hard (I think more hard for me because I'm damn dumb) but just endure for about 3 weeks? And we'll all be done!!!! ;) Omg, honestly can't wait.

Heading for a job interview next week I hope I can clinch it cause I need a job badly for my vacation break. I know I've disappointed myself many times but well, let me just continue believing in myself.

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Almost

Here comes Week 12, embrace yourself everyone. I'm so not ready yet.

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Light

If you're following me on twitter, you probably would have known this but...

 I PASS MY GRADE 8 PIANO EXAM!!!!!!!!

okay, I was almost as excited as this girl above just that I was doing my project so yeah I toned down hahahaha. It was so unbelievable I swear because I thought I was performing like crap all the way but I guess my examiner was pretty lenient yayyyyyy. I can finally say I end my piano life on a good note and I didn't waste all the piano+exam fees my dad had paid for me all these years ;) Now I'm just waiting for my comments sheet to reach me by mail! Can't wait to see which section actually saved me hahaha.

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Spent the whole day doing IMD and gosh I'm honestly brain dead right now. It would have been great if we spent our time doing something really useful but after attending the tut, we have to scrap our idea and kinda re-do again :( wlao waste time max and it's soooo tiring. Presentation next Tuesday so sigh this week is gonna be chiong week for IMD :( I really need this project to pull my grades up too :/ Fingers crossed.

Less than a month to finals. I'm dreading yet looking forward to it at the same time. 6th May, I'm waiting for you to arrive ;)

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