Last but the best

Yay it's December!!!! Ah it's such a festive month but it would be better if I live somewhere else on Earth to experience the snow+real Christmas mood yknw. Snow, winter wear, sipping hot drinks - all my dreams which I hope to fulfil one fine day when I will travel to the other parts of the world to spend my Christmas :) Certainly hope that's coming true though.

Anyway the happiest thing about December coming is cause my finals will finally end. It's such a burden I swear plus, my exams are ending reallly late I'm not even kidding. The whole world is announcing that they have already ended while me, the pathetic soul right here, is still stuck with 3 papers. Papers should seriously be as early as possible seriously. Not to mention, I haven't fully recovered ever since I fell ill during Reading Week (yes it's been that long).  But whatever it is, just 4 more days and I am finally done and then CATCHING FIRE AFTER THAT!!!!! Yes I know a zillions of people probably have already watched it but well I guess I just wanted to use it as a form of motivation for me.

December is the month of happiness because it's holiday for me but it's also the month of spending money because I've to spend on Christmas gifts which explains why I'm heading back to AC to work just to earn some money for this month. I'm gonna be working with lots of people I don't know so fingers crossed that they are nice people and not those bitchy ones hahaha.

Speaking of which, 2014 is coming (wth that's freaking fast) and I can already predict that it's gonna be a busy year for me! Cause it's school --> internship--> school. Yes I'm confirmed a place at the PR company yay!!! Actually, I'm not so sure whether I'll really like it but I guess it's an experience and I will find out whether I'm suitable for this industry. So hoping that KY will be with me somehow hahaha. So, no summer break for me which is why 2014 is gonna a busyyyy year till December for me. Ok don't think I wanna think about that at the moment so for now, let me get through my last 3 papers. Let's go.

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The Impossible

So, today felt like a really tiring and boring day for me (because I went all the way to the East to collect my new AC uniform and then back to the west for school ) until an amazing thing happened. I got approached when my lecture ended to be asked whether KY and I are interested to go for an internship cause someone recommended us!!!! I was like woahhhhhhhh~

Yes pretty much like the baby above because I never knew I would EVER EVER be approached by a general manager of a company to be asked to try out for their internship!!! I don't know how many people are recommended but I'm just so happy yknw :) This totally made my day so thank you to whoever that recommended me, I will try my best I promise! :)

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Royals

This cover is too good to not share :) 

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Stay the night

#throwback

featuring one of my favourite male voice :) 

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Ridiculous

So someone came to reprimand me today that I shouldn't vent and rant on social media on certain issues. Oh wow who are you to tell me that. And excuse me, it's my own account and if you're unhappy then you can just freaking unfollow me. You didn't corrected me and told me those last time, so don't even try bother telling me now. Cause to me, it's cause you are already over the phase, obviously you don't feel as strongly as I do? Appreciation, I don't see you saying you appreciate last time either. And please don't compare yourself to me because we are totally different. Don't put your standards on me because I am not you. And I think I have already done what I can by tolerating what she have done so don't tell me I can't even complain about things on my very own twitter. Just so you know, many of my friends are doing that as well and it's not like I bother making any form of judgement either. Just leave me alone and I don't care who you're complaining to either and make me look like I'm a freaking bad tempered and horrible woman because ask those people to come and lead my life before they even judge. Peace out.

Half alive

Every single time I am here, it's either I'm bored so I felt like blogging or basically I had a bad day and so I need to rant. You know that feeling of anticipating better results because you felt like you've studied (as always) but nah, results always do not turn out the way you want it to be. Oh yes, in my case this happened way too many times I can't even keep track anymore. You know that feeling when you want your projects to  go well but your project mates couldn't care less because they feel that they have more important things to care about? Ok this is my first time. You know that feeling when you're anticipating something for weeks and  when the time is almost coming, someone tells you that it's not happening anymore so go fuck yourself because you're unlucky as fuck, oh yes that feeling is bloody fuck up.

ok that basically sums up my feeling for the past week. Seriously, will good things come my way more often? I feel like I have been unlucky my whole life. #nokidding. 

36 months

Just so you know,

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Ageing

Basically I'm a joke right now cause I injured my lower back :( It hurts like fuck and I injured it while SNEEZING. Oh yes I'm not even kidding you. I sneezed and sneezed and then my lower back gave way *claps* I don't even know how the hell that even happened. It sucks walking around with a injured lower back because it's really painful :( Maybe it's God's way of punishing me for slouching too much,yup so I guess I'll be walking with my back really straight for the next few days. Such a bad timing to be injured.

Feeling rather satisfied with my 2219 mid terms because...I'm finally above average. I guess nm is the major for me then? I forgot quite abit of things during the exam (but I study ok) but it turned out pretty ok. Ah so thankful. Gotta keep working hard. So not looking forward to my 2201 paper this Friday.

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Wake me up

A break off from studying during recess week to celebrate beloved Siti's birthday! Buffet lunch at 1 Market by Chef Wan @ Plaza Singapura. I wasn't really impressed with the food there but with the price that I'm paying, I guess I really can't ask for more. 

Singrui and I turned up coincidentally in bustier dress and wow there's just really so much common things between us. Many commented that we look alike or to say give off the same feel/vibe, we have pretty much quite similar taste in clothings, we love shopping online (!!!) but sad to say we have very different taste in food though haha. I'm just the more unhealthy version I guess haha. But with that said, always thankful to have this bunch of people in uni xx.

3 mid terms upcoming and argh I'm always that unlucky someone who will have >3 mid terms, not kidding. There's just too much information for me to understand and take in and I hope the papers do show me some mercy please. One falls on a Saturday (thanks operations management) but it's ok cause I'm so looking forward to Sunday!! I have a few assignments due on week 8 but there's something exciting coming up then too hehe can't wait.

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Sunshine

Recess week is here. Can't believe 6 weeks of school just flew past, well it doesn't quite feel like it. And yup, time to buck up and study for mid terms because well once again, nobody wants to lose to the bellcurve.

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Attended Singrui's 21st a week ago. 21st seem to be a really huge step for everybody and there's been people asking me: Are you holding any birthday party? I wish I could or I rather it's really something big for me so that it would be more meaningful for me to hold one but honestly, it doesn't make any difference. Turning 21 to me is just being a year older that's all. The key to freedom just don't apply to me. What can I say really. Ok yes, back to Singrui's 21st.

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Weekends with the boy has always been precious for me. Yes though I do see him in school now almost every single day, but nothing beats spending a full day with him, doing whatever we want and not thinking about school. So today was just the sun, the sea, nature, childhood and us :)

Had (7 inches square) pizza and it was really good! Why doesn't NUS have this :( apparently it's available both at NTU and SMU boo :( 

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Updated to IOS 7 and honestly I'm not very impressed. Ok sure, the whole interface looks cooler than before but the functions doesn't appeal to me. And some of it even disappoints!!! (like the annoying wallpaper one, ok I think I've complained too many times) Sigh, wish I could revert back to IOS 6 now, at least I won't have trouble using it? 

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Mess

I really don't understand why you are so stubborn, so selfish, so self-centered, so pessimistic, so annoying, so dislikable, so different. There are so many things I wish I could have told you but I'm just afraid of bearing the consequences. We are all grown up and certainly we are entitled to our own opinions. The world doesn't revolve around you and neither is the family.We had put up with you for so many years and every single time I wanna give up. I'm entitled to my own freedom and how I wish you knew how you have destroyed my life for the past few years. I took all in, I didn't rebel, I didn't even say a thing. Now honestly what more do you want from us? I swear we have done the best we could and if you're not satisfied, I suggest you can head off and find a perfect world where perfect humans live in. But the thing is, there is no such world and you're certainly not entitled to live there because you're full of flaws. You overthink things, you hold negative thoughts and honestly I think you're hopeless. If you think you're the only one thinking that it sucks to live in this world, perhaps you can spend a moment thinking for your daughters who had suffered in your hands for so many years. I'm not saying you haven't done a single good thing, or actually you have done many but you always make it so hard for us to be nice to you. It's hard to like you but it's hard to hate you (for long) because ultimately you're still my family. I just wish you can wake up and stop wanting the whole world to go your way. Being overly dramatic doesn't help (at least for me) because I've seen through your tricks. It's so scary because I don't know who to trust and what actually are the truths. Why don't you just wanna be happy? Because I want to but living in this family makes it so hard to. Anybody wanna take me in?

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Come, meet my another family who only knows how to sleep on a moving vehicle. He says: "My family is your family so you can always come find us."

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Goodbye August

Well, hi there, September. The month of mid terms, projects meetings, more assignments. So yes, another month of boring school. Sometimes(actually all the time) I wish my life can be a little more exciting. And every month I wish for the same thing: Freedom.

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Applause

Met up with Olivia for the last time yesterday before she returns back to Canada (she's not visiting next year so the next time I'll see her will be 2 years later) She has always been such amazing person. So cheerful with her artsy humour and all. Really gonna miss this girl :(

I Love New York - it was pretty ok but so not worth the price -_-''. this cost $28.20 after GST and all, like erm the portion wise isn't even there to cost near $30. 

English - choose this anytime over the one above cause they cost the same!!! Ok I sound damn aunty hahaha but honestly English is still one of the best I've tried at Wild Honey. 

See you in two years' time Oli :) It's so scary knowing in 2 year's time I'll have probably graduated/working. Ah, time is flying so quickly. 

xx

In case you miss E and my face (cause honestly we aren't those couple that take pictures everytime we are out hahaha), here's some for you haha. 

My favourite picture of the day :') 

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Tutorial starts tomorrow and I must say well, I'm not anticipating it. Class part is really not something I'm strong at (nor exams or projects). Ok basically I suck at everything so ya I know I have to buck up no matter what to graduate with a decent CAP. It doesn't help that I've Deans Listers' friends around me and looking at them sometimes just reminds me of how stupid I am. I mean I can't help it but I know there's no point comparing. I'm never those that ace my exams since young so really, I can't compare with anyone but myself. I know I can do better than what I'm achieving and all I can do is to just continue having faith in myself. My really sweet friend Siya whatsapp me yesterday and she shared a verse with me:

"34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough troubles of its own."

And yes she is right. I shouldn't worry too much but just let nature take it's course. I will never become a Dean listers or anything near that but all I can do is to be true to myself and make sure I've done my part well. Tomorrow marks the day where I will (and must) finally throw away all my holiday mood behind me (haha) and get down to studying. I know many has already started but I'll start doing my tutorial diligently and focus during lecture as much as I can. I'm gonna try to participate as much as I can this semester and not let what JA said come true. I will not "be dead". I will speak regardless of how stupid some answers may be. Siya is right, no answer can be too stupid. But honestly, calculating my CAP everytime can be so depressing because it seems that I can never reach my target CAP sigh. Ok yes, I'm depressed all over again. 

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Roar

Second week into school and oh god, almost forgot how I hated school honestly. My timetable this sem is like the worst ever - 5 day week wtf. Timing wise are all pretty screwed up as well. Not to mention the mods I'm taking are pretty stressful cause the class participation percentage is bloody high. Why can't they just let me learn with ease, honestly I hate all the high percentage stressing people (like me) to talk because I don't want to end up with a C grade just because I don't feel like talking in class. I'm SO dreading next week already oh god. This sem, please fly past kthx.

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Treasure

I love you <3

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Is it so hard to be happy?

Counting Stars

Less than a week to the start of school. This feeling is pretty annoying but alas, I got all my mods successfully once again this sem. I should be thankful how successful my bidding process always goes. But I just spent a record amount of points on just 2 mods this sem, I'm a little annoyed by that fact but argh at least I don't have to trouble myself over replanning my whole timetable once again.

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Tried Tim Ho Wan the other day with my sista because I told myself I just have to try this 1-star Michelin Restaurant. Went at about 240pm on a weekday afternoon but yet there's still a queue. Took us about 20-30 mins before we got a seat. Food was served really fast (not kidding about this) but the food, I was honestly disappointed :(

 BBQ Pork bun - the dish that everyone was raving about. It's nice but I don't feel that it's fantastic nor is there anything special. It's very similar to Canton Paradise's in my opinion. 

This isn't raved by anyone but I find this dish pretty good actually. It's steamed roll with pork+shrimp (I think) 

Probably my favourite dish because I can taste the carrot bits. It's pretty delightful though alittle too soft. 

Spring roll with egg white- do not understand the raves behind this dish. It's tasteless and I don't find it nice at all, or maybe just the skin cause it's was really crispy. 

Worst dish out of the lot. Don't even know why did anyone recommend this at all. Sigh.

My experience was pretty blah. I guess I expected way more from Tim Ho Wan but in the end the food isn't even really good plus the choices are super limited. My favourite dim sum place will probably still be Canton Paradise :)

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Jollibee+Shopping+Starbucks session with Elouis. 

Jollibee is probably the most famous fast food stall in Philippines. Their set doesn't come with fries (it was an add on) but instead, it comes with a rice(with whipped potato's gravy-alike sauce) The chicken was pretty big and decent and the meat itself was tenderrrr. It's not fantastic like how philippinos will make it sound as (like my managersss) but I think it's decent and worth a try! 

Let's work hard (again) for the upcoming semester! Yay finally taking mod together with this girl so now we can catch up every week ;) 

Koh Grill & Sushi Bar+ Coffee Club with my bestest uni friends :) 

They both had Tokyo Ramen which was not good at all (in their opinions). I guess we should all go for other food when we go Koh Grill! 

My Yaki Udon which I waited an hour for -_-'' Koh Grill is super packed during dinner time so please make reservation before heading down! 

Legendary Shiok Maki which of course deserve a single-picture-shot.

So glad we are still going strong after one year despite us all having different majors and it's all different this sem now because that bitch is now a double major in geog+nm, I switched to major in nm to try out new things (hopefully it will give me better results haha) and singrui of course still a nm major. So I've 2 same modules with 2 of them this sem which I think it's gonna be fun ;) 

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Recently, I've been doubting myself all the time. There are times where I feel like there's no point but other times I will think that I should just hang in there. I'm not even sure what I'm feeling right now because I don't feel any closer to you than before but I feel further from you. I don't feel like I'm any part of your life because you're so freaking busy now I don't know whether I'll ever be your priority again. You will try to update me as and when but you know it's different. I really don't care who your many new friends are, neither have I forgive you for being so selfish (but yes you don't think you are) Is this call different views or is this call challenge? I need a bigger heart to continue this journey or else my heart will be dead one fine day and I'll call it the end. Can I turn back time please? There are many things I wish I had said and actions which I wish I had not done. This is life. 

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