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I really don't understand why you are so stubborn, so selfish, so self-centered, so pessimistic, so annoying, so dislikable, so different. There are so many things I wish I could have told you but I'm just afraid of bearing the consequences. We are all grown up and certainly we are entitled to our own opinions. The world doesn't revolve around you and neither is the family.We had put up with you for so many years and every single time I wanna give up. I'm entitled to my own freedom and how I wish you knew how you have destroyed my life for the past few years. I took all in, I didn't rebel, I didn't even say a thing. Now honestly what more do you want from us? I swear we have done the best we could and if you're not satisfied, I suggest you can head off and find a perfect world where perfect humans live in. But the thing is, there is no such world and you're certainly not entitled to live there because you're full of flaws. You overthink things, you hold negative thoughts and honestly I think you're hopeless. If you think you're the only one thinking that it sucks to live in this world, perhaps you can spend a moment thinking for your daughters who had suffered in your hands for so many years. I'm not saying you haven't done a single good thing, or actually you have done many but you always make it so hard for us to be nice to you. It's hard to like you but it's hard to hate you (for long) because ultimately you're still my family. I just wish you can wake up and stop wanting the whole world to go your way. Being overly dramatic doesn't help (at least for me) because I've seen through your tricks. It's so scary because I don't know who to trust and what actually are the truths. Why don't you just wanna be happy? Because I want to but living in this family makes it so hard to. Anybody wanna take me in?

xx

Come, meet my another family who only knows how to sleep on a moving vehicle. He says: "My family is your family so you can always come find us."

xoxo